The Weird Thread

[brandondrury]

Hey dudes,

This is going to get weird so fair warning.

To start off, there have been things in my life I have just known. I remember when my step dad saw that I bought my first guitar. He thought it was stupid and the guitar would just collect dust. Of course, I obviously stuck with the whole music thing. I knew I was going to stick with guitar before I even picked the thing up.

When I got my first and only job at the local Burger King, I knew that some day I was going to be a manager. I did. (I really underestimated my abilities back then ).

When I decided I want to record some noise, I knew I was going to stick with it. I never really considered it a risk to spend the price of a new car on a hobby on a BK assistant manager salary. (Of course, I was 21 and living at home).

Well, here's where it gets weird. I have this deep down, gut feeling that I'm going to kill someone some day. I'm not sure if it's going to be in a heroic way like I save a bunch of kids from the invading communists or it's going to be something a little bit..."weirder".

Anyway, I'm kind of hoping that my gut isn't right on this one because I don't feel like killing anyone right now. I was just wondering if anyone else has had a gut feeling about their homicidal future. Have any of you been right?

Brandon

[Gitarted]

Wow Brandon,Thats pretty large.
I'm assuming that you are being sincere, and not making a joke right now.
So I will give my take on how I'm looking at this.

Are you feeling this way in regards to someone that's done you wrong?
or do you have some kinda intuition like possibly in an accidental way?

or, could you be feeling the collective rage by pretty much everyone on the planet about the fucking retard calling the shots, taking away our rights, killing shit loads of people fighting for peace (Isn't that like fucking for virginity?)... who has covered his own ass so well that he is above the law and we can't do a fucking thing about it?

just wondering...
Is this a feeling you've just recently had?
or have you felt this way for a while?

I hope I'm not getting too personal, but i'm assuming that if you didn't want to discuss it, you wouldn't have posted this.

D

[siski]

Originally Posted by brandondrury

Have any of you been right?

I guess we'd be very clever, lucky or in prison.

Sounds like depression to me.

Simon.

[lumpy]

Brandon,
I once had a dream that I was eating a giant marshmallow and then I woke up and....

Not so sure that having a hunch that you are going to kill someone is all that "weird". I used to think I had a bad temper; now I say I am "passionate".

Beer and red beans and rice don't mix.

You need another outlet. I suggest hardcore BDSM porn.

Lump

[Gitarted]

FWIW I haven't really wanted to kill anyone in a long time...

But, as accident prone as I've been lately,
It's probably me that I'll end up killing.

Lately I feel like I could hurt myself just waking up.

[Charlie_M]

In my 43 years I've found that my subconscious mind can speak to me in funny ways sometimes. It can be really helpful to me when I crack the code and get what it's trying to say. The problem is that it uses the most ass-backwards language and is almost never (in my experience) to be taken literally.

I truly doubt that you have a deep unspoken desire or need or fate that involves killing someone. I would look first at other things that may be silently building in the background - starting with : when was the last time you took a vacation (at least several days long, like a 3-day weekend minimum with just you and the GF) or an all-nighter out drinking with friends until the bars kick you out and then sleep all day the next day or 2 with the phone unplugged? You're a guy who runs his own business (or two?) and among those guys forgetting to take a vacation is pretty common. Could be anything though that's causing stress - or a combination of things. See if any of that rings true. Good luck.

[brandondrury]

I appreciate the comments / concern / etc.

First of all, I forgot that we live in the post - Columbine / post - 911 world where we have to take each and every possible "risk" as a legitimate threat.

No, I couldn't be any further from depressed. In fact, I'm happier now than I've been in a long time. I'm making enough money to live off of. (So my basic needs are met.) It's summer. (So, I'm not freezing my ass off) I'm about to launch a big, non music site that should give me more than enough money to live off of. (I'm in the middle of a big challenge / adventure that could benefit me in the future) The new dog is a total pain in the ass, but totally fun.(Whatever void a dog fills is taken care of) I don't believe in "stress", but my mind is thinking about the site launch coming up in the very near future. I wouldn't say it's an excessive (or even annoying) feeling...maybe more like excitement.

My giant marshmellow dream (which is probably the closest analogy to my little prediction) has nothing to do with my mood. I'm in a good mood. I'm taking the rest of the day off of work. I'm going to eat BBQ, probably shoot my 13 year old step sister with bottle rockets (Life doesn't get much better!), and talk about beating the British (the true meaning of 4th of July.....kind of like that weird feeling when someone has to ruin Christmas by talking about Jesus (I'm making a joke, if you get offended, your stupid) ).

I have another equally intense gut feeling. I think that I will someday kill someone and I also think that I will some day own a pickup truck. (I drive a Civic now). It's such a pain in the ass borrowing a vehicle to pickup plywood. I also feel like I will some day have children. This is the extent of my Oracle like powers.

I truly doubt that you have a deep unspoken desire or need or fate that involves killing someone.

Nope, it's not a need. I can't think of anyone I need to kill. I can't think of anyone I would even want to kill.

This is more like that movie Minority Report. They'd probably bust down my door because I'm going to shoot the guy who kidnapped my daughter in 2017. Maybe not.

Brandon

[Adam]

Maybe in 2017 you'll have children someone will kidnap them and then you'll run them over with a pickup truck....?

[musichead]

B:

maybe you have already killed. for instance: this site kills.
if you shoot somebody, aim the nuts. that way you'll have a laugh
everytime you think about it. IT MIGHT KILL YOU with laughter.

just make sure you kill someone using a karaoke... in heaven it's not
considered a crime if you kill them while ruining a song. Now, how bout
this for a thread: if you could kill someone and not get caught, who would
that be? Don't know why the name Simon comes to mind.

[brandondrury]

if you shoot somebody, aim the nuts. that way you'll have a laugh
everytime you think about it.

That's funny!

if you could kill someone and not get caught, who would
that be? Don't know why the name Simon comes to mind.

It would have to be an irreplaceable celebrity or tycoon that is responsible for the entertainment on cable TV somehw. I'ld have to think about it.

Just an update. Maybe I've been too busy with Killer Home Recording, but I really haven't thought about this killing thing in a while. Maybe it was just a phase.

Brandon